I've been doing some serious thinking on WHY I am doing martial arts. I can't get it out of my mind and that's all I've been thinking about.
This all happened after a trip to Japan and Australia with my Sensei. He introduced me to a huge number of Senseis from different arts like Aikido, Karate, Jiu-Jitsu, Iado, etc.
After having long, serious, and enlightening chats with them, I found that in the end, they would always ask me WHY I am practicing it. All my answers basically have a hole in them, and now there is a hole in my heart.
Below are my answers and the senseis' replies:
Me: Because it is exciting and I love to spar and meet new people.
Them: What happens when you get old or when you are unable to spar. You would not get the excitement that you used to have. Would you abandon your art after that?
Me: Condition my body, make me strong.
Them: What happens when you get to your highest level of strength and fitness? Do you then stop progressing? Do you stop practicing since you have achieved your goal?
There are many more answers which I have given, but could not recall.
I've been practicing it for all these years, basically for self defense and general fitness. The competition parts also make it exciting for me. Philological-wise, I've been trying to understand and live by their way.
How can I overcome this dilemma?